Drown in the sea of tears
Run from the chance to feel
Dance of love, reborn fears
Join me for one last meal

I'm feeling weepy tonight. Not really sure why. She called again. Just a few minutes after I  had decided to accept that she would not. I was a little distant. Tried to keep the smile in my voice. I don't know.. I just don't know...

I talked to my aunt online a few minutes ago. She said that women are confusing. Didn't offer up why that might be. The mystery continues. She also told me that love would arrive when I least expect it... "one day when you are not expecting it it will happen right before your eyes it will be someone you would not even expect"

I want to be patient. I want to believe. I want to trust. And I know these things are possible. I accept my feeelings, but call to mind that I am not only my feelings. I choose to feel them, and then to continue to walk...

Hope shines from the heart
Trust in faith's great power
Sancifying flames, new start
Walk again this new hour

I guess I'll go for a walk. Perhaps I'll cry a few more tears tonight, perhaps not. But I will sleep well tonight, in God's grace and peace, and in the knowing that the best is indeed yet to come.

God bless ya'll